Tag: personal
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Limbs: A Poem (Escapril #3)
The following is a part of a 30-day writing challenge, Escapril, started by author Savannah Brown. You used to be a part of me. Living in harmony with the rest of my body, you were as attached to me as I was to you. Diseased. Gangrenous. You threatened to spread your poison to my heart…
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A Separation (Escapril #2)
The following is a part of a 30-day writing challenge Escapril started by author Savannah Brown. (TW: self-harm, loss, gore) They told me I shouldn’t feel a thing like somehow the ‘not feeling’ would make it easier. Fifteen minutes to make 2 halves of one whole. Precision. Speed. Efficient and painless they promised, as if…
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So… What is next?
May 25th, 2021 It is a Sunday, May 9th 2021 to be exact, and I am sitting in an Olive Garden parking lot in the backseat of my little sister’s car watching a prerecorded graduation on my cell phone. The president of my university speaks first, welcoming everyone watching at home, congratulating us, the class…
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Things I Wish I Knew Before Applying to Graduate School
April 9th, 2021 At the moment as I am finishing up my bachelor’s degree and starting to plan out when I want to go to graduate school, I am running into a lot of issues while I consider what programs I want to apply to. This is would be my second time applying to graduate…
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Can you revive a dying dream?
April 5th, 2021 A few days ago I received a brochure in the mail from National Geographic. The unexpected surprise crammed into my tiny mailbox gave me a rush at first. The famous yellow rectangle framing a grizzly bear sitting in a field of dandelions on the cover, “Expeditions: Travel Catalog 2021-2022” it read. I…
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Imposter Syndrome & Choosing Science
April 2nd, 2021 More than half the time I honestly feel like I don’t know what the hell I am doing. I have gone back and forth between feeling like I have a clear picture of somewhere I want to go in life and what I want to do and then writing that picture off…
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How I am feeling lately
April 1st, 2021 Someone very close to me recently told me I am very self-destructive and that my self-destructiveness made them very upset because they love me and they don’t want to see me hurt. I am not sure what to do with that. I feel like I have always been that way, not believing…
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Perfection Paralysis
March 2nd, 2021 Today, while attending a Womxn in STEM virtual panel discussion I was introduced to a phrase that was new to me but one I related to greatly: “Perfection Paralysis”. Suffering from perfectionism my entire academic life I had yet to hear this term but the concept makes a lot of sense. I…
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A Case For Walks In The Cold
February 23rd, 2021 As the snow melts in Chicago, I feel a sense of relief. Stepping out into the bright morning the cool air hits my face and runs its fingers through my hair. I am now finding comfort in the cold instead of detesting it as I have all winter. You can almost smell…
Livi Laree 